November 18th, 2010

People... it is officially ONE month until the wedding.  I can't believe it.  Drew & I are focusing on all the things we need to finish before the big day & the things we need to put in place for AFTER the big day (new home, new town, new life, & bringing our dogs with us...).

Today is my moving day!  I'm headed back to College Station for this last month & I can't wait.  I'm meeting miss Sarah P. at her lifegroup this evening to enjoy a viewing of It's A Wonderful Life.  I think that is the perfect way to start life living back in C-Stat.


Not much else to say besides I've started eating 1200 calories a day and I run nearly everyday.  Just trying to get in better shape for the wedding.  Can't wait!

After an amazing wedding shower Sunday afternoon, I am only slightly ready to begin another week.  Although I only have one class right now, I have to focus on it so much that I sometimes feel like I'm taking a full load.  It's math (of course) and it's always on my mind...  I also work 3 to 4 nights a week which is actually no big deal seeing as I go in at 5 and I'm usually out by 9.  Perfect hours, if only I made a little bit more cash.


This week's update is that I am moving back to College Station for the remainder of our wedding prep. time.  Drew came to me with a good point last week and it was that he feels my parents would probably like a little more quality time with me before they give away their last daughter, and especially before I move off to Mississippi with my new husband.  I like the idea, don't like knowing that I won't see Drew much and also don't like the idea having to drive back here twice a week for math class.  But, I think it is the best thing I could do at this point in time and I feel I owe it to my parents and my Grandma Rhodie as the three of them rarely get to see me.


I must admit that the thought of waking up every morning in ole' C-Stat and being able to call up lifelong friends anytime I want sounds aaaaaamazing.  I get texts from my friends in College Station about once a week "just letting me know" that they want to see me and wonder when I'm coming back to visit, etc. etc. etc.  Definitely makes me feel loved and missed. :D

Search & Find

Just found a new website that I'm loving - dailycandy.com


I found this bag on the website and I so wish I had the means to order it right now.

Drew and I visited Oxford, MS this past weekend in search of a new home.  We saw several cute places but only ONE that we fell in love with.

19 Gumtree Oxford, MS!

Of course I love America but the flag will definitely go.  I'm sure it will reappear during patriotic holidays but I have a few different ideas for the front of our new home... if we get it. We're putting an offer in later this week.

Huge Backyard!

This backyard is gigantic and we knew it would be perfect for our adorable dogs.  Both sides of the yard are fenced but not the back... strange.  Not a problem, we'll simply fence it before we move in.  We also need to dig trenches around the inside of the fence and pour concrete (the dogs are major diggers).  We'll then cover the trench with grass and plant some flower bushes in front of them, which will be so much fun!

Kitchen

The cabinets are an ivory or buttercream and I love them.  The kitchen has plenty of space for my appliances and plenty of room for our plates and glasses, pots and pans etc.

Master Bedroom

The color of this room is so refreshing and the lighting is perfect. I love the huge windows.  I also like the desk the previous owners had in here so I might look for one just like it. :D

Crawl Space!

We LOVED this.  It's a small room just above the garage and just big enough to house a small home office or, just as the previous owners used it, a family music room.  We will probably use it for a yoga room/kids room when the nieces and nephews come to visit. They would LOVE this space, just big enough for them - kind of like a playhouse.

We're going to put a bid in on the house later this week and we'll go from there.

Update - Nothing More.

It's been awhile.


I have been busy-in-the-brain and not so much in life. My mind is so full of the stuff I have to do for the wedding and for school and for moving to Mississippi that I feel a little like I'm going crazy. I guess that's okay, it's less than 2 months til the wedding and I think I can make it that long. I just cannot wait until we are moved and are able to start our own life together. I can't wait to decorate and take care of my own home. I can't wait to have all my kitchen stuff back and to be able to cook again! It's going to be incredible and everyday I know we're getting closer. The first of a few Bridal showers is in just over a week and I know as the festivities begin everything will start to fly by.


And I wonder... when it's over, will I REALLY miss it? lol


All these things have quite frankly taken precedence over my blog and website building. But it's still in the works... in my mind. I've been staying up far too late the past two weeks and it has thrown off my groove so everyday I have been a tired, moody mess. Except for today! Because I fell asleep before 11:00. Tonight the goal is to fall asleep before 10:30.


Boring blog? I think so, but that's all I've got for now.

To change!

Alright, alright, alright.


So, if you've known me for any amount of time you are familiar with the fact that I am an emotional person.  A very emotional person.


I realize emotion isn't all bad but it usually gets in the way more than it helps out.  I know this from firsthand experience and I've realized it more ever since I met Drew and especially since we've been engaged.


I get my feelings hurt very easily.  I cry way too much and over silly things.  I get angry fast.  And almost constantly feel misunderstood.  These are all the negative sides of emotion and I see these more often than I see the positives.


I've realized for awhile that I need to get this in check if I want to have the kind of marriage I've always longed for.  And not only that, if I simply want to live a happy life I need to change!  Anytime I screw up and let my emotions take control I get so upset with myself and end up extremely unhappy for the rest of the day.


So, do I want to be a happy Promise? Yes! Now it's time to make a change!


This brings me to my next subject:


A few months ago my Mom gave me a book called Managing Your Emotions.  It took me awhile to pick it up but I finally started reading it a few days ago and, man, is it good!  One excerpt from the book cracks me up and I'll probably end up using it at some point... probably the next time Drew and I have a heated discussion. lol


"One time, when I was trying to learn to control my mouth and not talk back to my husband, I got so emotional the Lord had to say to me, 'Joyce, that's enough!  Don't you say another word!' I hurriedly left the room, ran down the hall, and locked myself in the bathroom.  I was so upset I buried my face in a towel and screamed into it!"


If that's what I have to do I will do it!  I just want to be a more pleasant human being.  I do talk back to Drew and sometimes other people.  And I'm kind of spoiled... if I don't get my way I will pout or get angry or cry like a little baby and "stomp" off to my room.  How childish!  And it's all because I allow my emotions to guide me.  I let them determine the way I will act in that situation, instead of manning up and taking control.


It's rather embarrassing to admit these things but isn't that what they say: the first step is admitting you have a problem?  If so then awesome, I have conquered the first step.


And now... the trial begins!

Skimpin'

So,


Drew & I have been living on a very tight budget for the last few months.


We both once had very well-paying jobs on Westheimer waiting tables at two 5-star restaurants.  In September Drew began student teaching (his last hurdle before graduation) and it seriously takes up all of his time: he leaves at 7:30 in the morning and usually isn't home until 5:00. There was simply no way he could continue serving at a restaurant that was over an hour's drive from our home.  Thus, Drew gave his two weeks notice.


Then there's little ole' me. I did not enjoy my job as a server from, well let's see... minus day 1. Being a server is not my cup of tea; it really puts me out of my comfort zone having to talk to strangers all night long and, I hate to use strong words, but I hate working nights. Despite all of this, I pushed myself because I was making good money and knew we needed it. BUT, a few months ago I got so completely and utterly depressed that I couldn't even make myself get out of bed somedays. (side note: I've dealt with depression since I was 11 and there are certain things that really trigger it plus life has just been extra-stessful lately). I went home to CStat for awhile hoping it would help but circumstances seemed to get even worse upon my return to Houston. I literally couldn't go on in that state; Drew was extremely worried about me and would stay home from work some days. We tried to narrow everything down; looking for the biggest stress causers. We came up with a list:

1. The restaurant - it was 1 and 1/2 hours from home.
2. I usually got off work around midnight, then I had to drive 1 and 1/2 hours home... this had me constantly tired the next day.
3. TRAFFIC. I am pretty much a small-town girl and every time I get in the car here I am instantly stressed. My chest tightens up and I can't breathe right! It's stupid and crazy but that's the reality of it.
4. Because of being up so late every night, I had no energy, constantly had colds and was not able to workout. I NEED to workout to feel good about myself and to have energy and strength. This was a big problem.
5. I was starting Fall classes and the thought of having to study, work so far away, go to class and deal with traffic was like impending doom!

So, those were the biggest causes. Drew told me he thought I needed to quit my job and find one nearer to home. So I did. And oh my gosh! Life is so much better. It is still stressful but I workout almost every morning, I have a little me time each day, I work 3 minutes from home and I have time to focus on homework and class. God is SO good.

Oh yeah, I started out this blog talking about money. Well, the job I now have doesn't pay the best and Drew is making absolutely no money as he is a student teacher. It's hard, we don't get to go out much and when I see cute clothes or a purse or a new CD I want... I usually can't purchase it. But each day I think about the new life we'll have after we're married - living in Mississippi, our own little house to take care of, two new jobs, and slightly more money than we have now. Haha. I just keep hanging on and reminding myself that all of the things I want now will just have to wait and that patience is a virtue. And I do believe it pays off. ;)

flores de la boda

Alright, people!  Here are a few pictures I found in a bridal magazine.  I'm having red and white flowers in the wedding and all these flowers caught my eye.

These are simply classic and I love how they make a perfect ball. It's like a flower tumbleweed and it's gorgeous.

Hydrangeas. I thought these would look beautiful nestled in the hands of my bridesmaids. 

I'm not quite sure the name of these flowers but wouldn't they be perfect for a Christmas wedding? Like mine! :D 

These are RED camellias and I would carry a bouquet of these little lovelies. 

I love these classic roses wound into a ball bouquet. I might carry something like this but with camellias instead of roses.  Does anybody know what the white flowers are???

I also love this cascading bouquet. So can't decide which one I want to carry!

Gorgeous white camellia.  I would love for the girls to cary a single blossom but I don't think it would look right.