A few words from a friend.
"I had one of those weeks last week too! I have 2 kids, a 3 year old and a 9 year old that has adhd, mood disorder, odd and anxiety (being watched for bipolar) so it usually means I need a "break" from life. I find that taking space or a break from whatever is currently going on and being able to enjoy some sort of quite time and read a book or watch a good movie always helps. Getting some quality "me" time to revive and recharge my inner soul (sounds super cheesey, I know) but to also take a step back and look into my own life and reflect on everything I am doing and why I am doing it, who I am doing it for and the goals I am trying to reach. Sometimes I get so caught up in life and forget the purpose of everything going on. This is one of the main reasons I started going to the gym every morning and really focusing on health- I am always doing something for my family that I wasn't taking care of myself and one day I was really sick and couldn't tend to my kids and no one was there to take care of me (my husband works) I thought to myself 'what if I was to get really ill because I didn't take care of myself? Who would take care of my family or me?' From then on I changed my lifestyle and wanted to be healthy and part of being healthy, aside from food and exercise, is putting everything down and taking time to yourself and doing something you truly enjoy.- sorry for rambling and hopefully if makes a little sense :)"
Ideas and inklings of one Promise Joy Rhodes DuBose
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Inspiration
I'm searching for what inspires me to live a better life. I know a few things like my husband, my future children and my own self confidence keep me going but I need to find what it is I want to DO with my life. I'm in college but I feel that I only do it to make my parents, my grandmother and my husband proud. Every now and then I genuinely enjoy class or the subjects I'm studying but everyday when I come home I think about the fact that I'm not passionate about any of it. So what do I need to change in order to be passionate about a career?
I definitely want a career. I want something that is personal to me; something that is my very own and that I can be PROUD of. I LOVE learning about nutrition and working out and I love helping people to achieve their goals. People come to me with questions about exercise and if I don't know the answer I find it for them. Should I be a nutritionist or a speech pathologist??? A veterinarian or a business owner? Those are the 4 things I am stuck on. I've got to do some serious praying. I know God will give me peace about one of them and when he does I'll begin pursuing it. Until then I will continue the college classes I'm in.
Someday I'll soar...
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Growing Up
Wow - what a whirlwind the past 5 weeks have been!
For the first time in my college career I applied myself full-throttle and the work paid off. It's like my eyes were opened and I suddenly realized that in order to not only feel good about myself but to alleviate stress I simply need to stay on top of my homework and do everything the professor suggests I do. I've acquired good study habits and only ONCE did I procrastinate, and I did that because I was so worried about how I was going to do on finals that I didn't want to face studying for them.
But now all of that is behind me, the urgency of studying is over and I have the chance to look back on the past 5 weeks. I'm evaluating my performance and the consequences of that performance. I hope that I can do this well in the Fall and even better. Something my aunt told me has really gotten me through this time. She said, "Don't be perfect. Be excellent." You see, I am guilty of being a perfectionist when it comes to tasks I'm assigned and if I don't get 100 % I get really upset with myself because I know it's my fault. But after hearing those words from my aunt my entire perspective on school and work has changed. It's okay if you're not perfect! All that matters is that you do YOUR best and are excellent in what you do. Awesome!
For the first time in my college career I applied myself full-throttle and the work paid off. It's like my eyes were opened and I suddenly realized that in order to not only feel good about myself but to alleviate stress I simply need to stay on top of my homework and do everything the professor suggests I do. I've acquired good study habits and only ONCE did I procrastinate, and I did that because I was so worried about how I was going to do on finals that I didn't want to face studying for them.
But now all of that is behind me, the urgency of studying is over and I have the chance to look back on the past 5 weeks. I'm evaluating my performance and the consequences of that performance. I hope that I can do this well in the Fall and even better. Something my aunt told me has really gotten me through this time. She said, "Don't be perfect. Be excellent." You see, I am guilty of being a perfectionist when it comes to tasks I'm assigned and if I don't get 100 % I get really upset with myself because I know it's my fault. But after hearing those words from my aunt my entire perspective on school and work has changed. It's okay if you're not perfect! All that matters is that you do YOUR best and are excellent in what you do. Awesome!
Monday, June 6, 2011
Oatmeal and Agave Nectar = Delicious Morning
It would seem that Drew & I have finally figured out how to delegate and share our time. At last! Basically since we met we have spent every waking moment together. Of course he took an 8 day trip to Tahoe in December of 09. He also took a 2 week work trip to China & Singapore this past February & I took a trip to England in May. So, we have spent time apart but when we're both in the same state (or country) we spend EVERY hour together. Because he works from home & I don't work during the school year it is hard for us to get any "me" time & recently we realized that "me" time is really important.
Now that it's Summer and I'm working almost everyday Drew is getting more time to himself in the afternoons & we've scheduled some personal time in the mornings. When I wake up I start the coffee and immediately head to "my room". I spend an hour to an hour & a half checking email, writing, reading and getting ready for the day. Drew spends this time reading. And only reading (I love the way he enjoys to read). Having these bits of time apart helps us to enjoy each others company even more. We feel more balanced as a couple & like real adults. LOL. It's been a good change.
Friday, May 27, 2011
What I Want (& Need) Right Now
Okay, list time!
- Establish a husband/wife life schedule
- Become structured human beings
- Start packing for move
- Find counselor
- Finish managing emotions book
- Deep-clean entire CS house
- Organize CS garage sale
- Find part-time Summer job
- Set up Fall classes and financial aid
- Go to bed earlier
- Get up by 7 everyday
- READ more!
- Spend time with friends
- Be a happy person
- Just get out there and LIVE!
I should read this post everyday.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
A Prayer
Father,
I know that you blessed me with a creativity of words and getting my thoughts down in print, so why have I forsaken that blessing? I haven't touched pen to paper in over a year and my spirit feels the strain of it. I feared there was nothing left within me that was beautiful and glorious but tonight I saw a glimmer of hope. I lost myself, God, I lost myself. Can you take me back to where I stepped off and help me see your face again. When I daily sought you, simply spoke with you, there was a deepness of my soul that helped me through each day. I know you have blessed me in this life but I have always, since I was a little girl, felt a sorrow that I cannot explain and unless I am near to you I am almost overcome by that sorrow. I believe you placed that within me so that I would be able to understand other people who live with that sorrow and have faced hurt and confusion. You will bring these people into my life and I will befriend them and be there to hold them up in the dark times of their lives because I know how it is to feel that lowliness, that sorrow and hopelessness. But I also know what it is to feel the hope on the other side.
God, please awaken this sleeper's soul and water these withered roots, make this tree to grow and sprout green leaves of life once again. Deep in these dry branches there is life waiting to break free and sing songs of praise once again.
Break me free.
I know that you blessed me with a creativity of words and getting my thoughts down in print, so why have I forsaken that blessing? I haven't touched pen to paper in over a year and my spirit feels the strain of it. I feared there was nothing left within me that was beautiful and glorious but tonight I saw a glimmer of hope. I lost myself, God, I lost myself. Can you take me back to where I stepped off and help me see your face again. When I daily sought you, simply spoke with you, there was a deepness of my soul that helped me through each day. I know you have blessed me in this life but I have always, since I was a little girl, felt a sorrow that I cannot explain and unless I am near to you I am almost overcome by that sorrow. I believe you placed that within me so that I would be able to understand other people who live with that sorrow and have faced hurt and confusion. You will bring these people into my life and I will befriend them and be there to hold them up in the dark times of their lives because I know how it is to feel that lowliness, that sorrow and hopelessness. But I also know what it is to feel the hope on the other side.
God, please awaken this sleeper's soul and water these withered roots, make this tree to grow and sprout green leaves of life once again. Deep in these dry branches there is life waiting to break free and sing songs of praise once again.
Break me free.
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